I don't mean "us" or our relationship. (Although I'd like to not give up on that either) I mean YOU.
I know you've treated me badly over the last few weeks. And although I recognize my part I've played in our relationship and how I've hurt you I'm not going to say you have an excuse for doing it.
But the fact that you did it. Continually, and swinging from one extreme to the next, one minute saying you dont want to lose me as a friend (and me believing that because I could hear it in your voice) to saying you dont want to talk to me (and your voice sounding completely different) is what is making me realise - this is not you.
And I'm so scared for you. And I'm not going to be so arrogant as to think I can "fix" you, or make you realise anything. But I hope I can help in some way...If you'll let me.
Because I am not giving up faith in you. I've seen you, I know you, I know what your thinking and feeling, and I know this isn't right.
I just hope you can see it in yourself, remember who you are capable of being, and want to get back to that. And let me help you if I can.
I love you. That's not changing. Maybe things will never happen again between us. But I still love you. And I want to be your friend. And I want to help you.
But please...try and help yourself? You owe it to yourself.
