Day 11 – My siblings

I have just the one Sibling. My lil Sister, Jessica. She just turned 18. I can still hardly believe it!

I look at photos of us when we were tiny and remember things like they happened yesterday.

I remember I was so excited to be the big sister. I wanted nothing more than to look after her, be her best friend and we'd always be there for each other.

Wasn't always quite the way it worked out. I got the feeling I wasn't quite trusted with her. The first time I got to hold her I had to be way back on the couch absolutely surrounded by pillows.

I don't know if we quite have that "best friend" relationship...although as I said a few posts back I don't really believe in the "best friends" thing anymore - since I grew up!

I do wish we were closer. I mean don't get me wrong, we have our moments. They just seem to be fewer and far between these days. We spend more time bickering and winding each other up than we do anything else.

I guess we've always just been in slightly different stages. As she got old enough to start playing with toys I was into complex make believe games. As she got into those, I started being more into pop music. As she got into that, I was a fully fledged teenager with the attitude to go with it. Then just as she started learning about boys and stuff I was a "grown up". I guess I thought that once we were both "adults" we'd get closer. Now at 23 and her at 18 I look back and realise how much I changed and learnt in the last 5 years (probably more than I did in the first 18!) and think maybe we still have a little way  to go for that theory to work.

Maybe once we're not under the same roof, driving each other crazy every second of the day it'll be better. We'll have real quality time. I hope so because in the good moments I know that I love my sister quite possibly more than anything on the planet. he's my baby sister. And if you think I'm defensive over my friends you wait until you see my reaction if someone hurts her.

Of course that can lead to over defensiveness sometimes and sticking my nose in where its not wanted (even if it is a case of "older sister knows best") But then the best way to learn is to learn the lessons for ourselves so I know I need to back out unless I'm asked for...as hard as that is sometimes, because my sister - like me - is not one to ask for help. (When it comes to the big stuff anyway)

Maybe we'll always be in slightly different life stages, never entirely on the same page. But we still have lots to offer each other. My sister can come out with some of the smartest things I've ever heard. Which is what cracks me up so much when she also comes out with some of the daftest! ("Your too purple")

I know this much though. However defensive I am of her, she is equally so of me, and to be honest - I'd be more scared of her. Whilst I go in all guns blazing, where at least you know what you'll be getting (a good punch in the face and knee to the groin in the least!) ,she's quieter, bides her time and you never quite know what shes up to!

And on that sinister note let me leave you with one of my fondest memories of us when we were little.

I was about 8 or 9 so she was about 3 or 4. I'd done some small thing to warrant my dad "punishing" me by taking my favourite toy and putting it way up high on a cabinet.

My tiny little sister tried to climb up to get it down for me, knowing that she'd get in worse trouble (and also not being anywhere close to reaching it bless her!) because she could see how upset I was. That always stayed with me - like little things like that that do.

   

2 of the best bands EVER

So last....Tuesday? (I think, I've lost all track of days and times!) was the 30 Seconds to Mars gig at Wembly. They were AWESOME! And even more awesome? They did this bit where he disappeared from the stage and appeared - one block of seats over from us! And we were right up in the seats! He could've been anywhere and he (Jared Leto btw for those not in the know) ended up not 10foot from me! THAT was mega exciting!


And he was playing guitar and singing acoustic versions of two of my favourites. I managed to get some video on my iPhone so I will cobble the best bits together and upload them.


Jess and Jamie had standing tickets. I did expect them to be a tad more jealous but then as they ended up practically at the front they had a really cool night anyway.


Then last weekend (frick that was a week ago...) me and Jess went to Germany to see the awesomness that is Blue October!!! They were playing at "Backstage" in Munich. The hotel we stayed in was really cute although the receptionist looked and sounded like the German guy in the IT Crowd that wants to "cook with" Moss! Made us chuckle...


So Sunday daytime we went out wandering so that we knew where the gig was in the evening. We discovered we were in a very non-touristy bit so we took lots of random pictures with lots of random "German" things.. Which we decided was probably the equivalent of someone wandering around Forest Gate taking pictures in front of Chicken Licken or something! But we had fun. So we found it, worked out what time we needed to be back and went back to the hotel.


Now we had paid extra for "Golden tickets" which included meet and greet, poster, autographs and listeing to their soundcheck before hand which we thought was AWESOME! The Gig started at like 9 and from what we could tell from the tickets we had to be there at like 7 for the meet and greet. As it turns out *sob* this was not true and we actually should've been there at 5:30! We did NOT know this and were absolutly gutted that we'd missed it.


So we got inside and went and found two security guards and sobbed to them, telling them we'd come all the way from London, how much we loved them etc etc. They said to come and see them after the show and they'd see what they could do. So we ended up right at the front which was REALLY cool! The gig was AWESOME!


*Warning: Fan Girl moment* I randomly decided to blow a kiss at Justin and he "caught" it! Hehe that was super cool and resulted in much fan girl "squeeing". So after the gig we went and found our security guard friends and they did a lot of talking in German. It turned out we didnt get to meet them personally (like we were hoping (as they were coming out to do autographs anyway) but we did mange to end up right at the front and we chatted with them for ages, telling them we'd come from London, missed the Golden ticket thing and how much we wanted them to come back. Turns out they might not be coming back unless they get more airplay in London. So as Sarah is unemployed guess what shes making her fulltime occupation now? "Project get Blue October playing on every radio station in London"! They seemed really chuffed about that to be honest.


So yeah it was sad we didnt get to see them but its not like we're not total fangirls and arnt going to go to many many more of  their gigs is it? And we had a WICKED weekend away together. I love my sister and I dont get to spend much time with her so it was really nice to spend lots of quality time with her.


(Photos to follow when I have a faster internet connection, not sitting in a departure longue)